Saturday, March 5, 2011

What is my purpose?

I've been thinking a lot about this lately.... What is my purpose?

It's clear what my roles and responsibilities are (at least right now). But why? Why am I a wife. Why am I mother. Why am I a student. Why do I care?
I can see my self as a leader, going out and inspiring the masses. The question is: inspiring them to do what exactly? Be better people? That's been done before. Or has it? Let's think about this for a moment.
....Thinking....thinking..................................................twidly dee......................tweedly dum..........

Ok I've got it. My purpose is to be seen in hindsight. What I mean is one's destiny rarely presents itself in the form of a vision of the future. Usually one looks back at things and sees where everything falls into place.
This still doesn't answer my question, though. Am I just supposed to go through life aimlessly with no recourse but to reflect on the past hoping to see some pattern? Of course not, I tell myself.
I think I need to decide what my short-term purpose is, like a goal. Then hope that my path opens itself up for me. Who knows?

This is what I do know.
There is so much that needs to be done in the world. And I just want to know who is going to do it. I know I can't do everything, or even organize enough people to do everything. But I can do my part. Except I don't know what my freaking part is. Understand my frustration?
I know what my talents are. I can write. I can sing (I'm ok). I can find the good in anything. I'm relatively inteligent, as academics go. And I'm as honest as a person can be without being rude. So where does that leave me?